Have you ever taken action knowing it within your gut that it wasn’t the right time, the right place, or the right person? How about feeling tired and worn out wondering how you were ever going to continue? Have you ever felt like a piece of you was missing? I’ve known exactly how you feel.
I felt utterly exhausted for many, many years. Much of it was a result of years spent in a corporate life of not honoring my Self, or the feminine aspect within me. In order to survive and succeed in a patriarchal paradigm which ours has been for eons, my tendency was to hold my Self very male like, more doer and action-oriented, rather than receptive and quiet. It was the only example I’d experienced and the only way I had known.
To my delight (and relief!) I’ve discovered you don’t need to be this far out of balance or disconnected to be successful, to get things done, or to be happy. There is a dance and balance you can play in with your masculine and feminine aspects of your Self.
On a trip to Egypt in 2000, I was in the Temple of Osiris. During a ceremony there, I experienced within my body the merging of the Divine Feminine and Masculine, thus a state of Divine Union. I had a concept of what this would be like but never really felt it within my heart, mind, or body. During this occurrence I sensed the energies in their purest form permeate my cells.
After experiencing the actualization of this wholeness I knew I wanted to ‘BE’ this all the time in all that I am and do. I was willing to let go of the imbalances being reflected back to me in many ways … in my relationship with my Self, a Beloved, others personally and professionally, and with my family.
On my return from Egypt, I embarked on a journey of real intimacy with my Self. On some level I knew I wasn’t deeply intimate with my Self so how could I be that with another? I asked questions of my Self …
- How did I perceive and hold my Self in life?
- How did I respond in relationships with others?
- How did I create the world I lived in?
At this point I was committed to do whatever it took to live the feeling and understanding experienced in the temple. It meant many people and things fell away, but my conviction to the Truth of Self was more important than perceived losses or judgments of the process.
I found the nurturance of the Mother (earth and water) and the connection with the Father (Divine spirit) to be extremely important in the process of balance, rediscovery, reintegration and rejuvenation. Water is a key Mother element in healing our SOULs as well as experiencing the play of it all with other beings such as the Dolphins. Water is fluid, feminine, and soothing to the SOUL. It is also a conduit in connecting, integrating. and assimilating which helps us to grow and expand.
As babies we floated in the embryonic fluids of our mothers feeling connected and secure. And as we all know, it was quite a surprise as we took our first breath in life and to experience our first initiation into the world as a slap on our behind. Was that how it was going to be from that moment on … disconnected from our mother by our cord being cut and shocked into reality? It’s no wonder that our bodies yearn again for the sacredness of water … the embryonic fluid of the mother earth.
Until I lived in Santa Fe, New Mexico, I had always lived by water and being near it seemed important. Living in Santa Fe, I realized how starved I was for water since deserts not being very conducive to lots of water. I went swimming with the Dolphins in Bimini for the first time in 2001 and it enlivened me in the most profound way. Building on the realization the year before I had in Egypt, the Bimini trip continued to open my heart and bring in more awareness of the feminine.
The Dolphins are a living example of balance, love, joy, and play with a profound intellect that we still don’t comprehend. Their frequency and the connection between their hearts and minds are evident. You cannot help but meet them at the vibration of love they hold and share. I watched the transformation within my Self and other members of the group on the trip as the days passed by.
There was an ease, flow, and knowingness of all things with the Dolphins. They allow the experience of the balance between feminine and masculine. They intuitively know (feminine) when to be in a quiet, gentle space (feminine) and when to be assertive and take action (masculine). They know when to be in chaos or flow (feminine) and when to be structured or organized (masculine). They know love, joy, peace, and harmony … a balanced state of ‘BE’-ingness, a Divine Union of All.
They honor all aspects of themselves and others … the play and the serious. I watched as they came to each one of us giving us what we each needed. As an observer, I saw how they ensured interaction 
with each and every individual and sent vibrations of healing, joy and love to them.
During my first encounter in swimming with the Dolphins in the open ocean, I was both excited and petrified (due to past life drownings). Between my excitement of being with the Dolphins in their own environment and the uneasiness of swimming in the ocean again, my diving mask and I were having a war with each other. The Dolphins understood this and knew I could not dive and play with them as others could.
They came up to me and just floated or swam with me side by side gazing into my eyes. One in particular did this a couple of times not just for a brief moment, but for at least 5-10 minutes each time. In our last encounter, we were just 12 inches apart and as clearly as you would speak to me, he telepathically said, “I love you”. I was so taken aback that all I could do was immediately say “I love you too”. He acknowledged receiving the message with a nod and then was off.
Over the years, I have swum with the Dolphins many, many times. Every experience is different but one thing is constant … the ecstasy I feel when I am in the water with them. I have had them swimming underneath me and spiraling up around me. I have had them mimic me with nods of their heads and a wave of their fins. I had a Mama Dolphin and her baby encircle me and continue to swim around me getting closer and closer as she imparted the wisdom of “You are the mother to many. Be the mother. Be who you are.”
Each encounter with the Dolphins is profound and life altering as they share their love, joy, and wisdom while they play with you. It is sheer ecstasy for me!
I so look forward to being with them physically in the waters once again during our SOUL Emergence Bimini Retreat next Summer Solstice, 2022. In the meantime, the reminder of the ecstasy they bring lives in my heart and in my dreams!
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